The most dangerous woman on earth is the woman who has reckoned with her own death. All women die; few women ever really live.*
Finding out that you have a terminal illness is possibly the worst moment of a person's life, to be sitting there, on the edge of the doctor's hard plastic office chair and hear her say in a low voice, "I'm very sorry." In that moment, is it life that flashes before your eyes? Or is it death?-- death flashing before your eyes?
But why should she be so very sorry? You're dying. I'm dying. We're all dying. Forever walking toward the grave, though lifted up by life and living all along the way. . . . I know I don't have to wait for the sympathetic murmur of a physician for this. My death sentence came when I took my first breath, 26 years ago. Death will come. I know it will.
So now I am free. I am free to live recklessly. I can throw my life into other people, throw my life away for the poor or the proud or the mean or the hungry. I can be used up for the Gospel, poured out on the feet of the King, washed away by ridiculous acts of grace. I am free to be dangerous, a dangerous woman.
*John Eldredge's words: "The most dangerous man on earth is the man who has reckoned with his own death. All men die; few men ever really live." But I can't ever hope to be a dangerous man; I hope instead to be a very dangerous woman.
8 comments:
I crown this blog queen of blogs for November. Ok, I don't remember all the blogs from November, and there were probably some good ones. But this is passionately inspiration. This is like hearing a lion roar and realizes it's not behind bars at the zoo. Dangerous.
I just re-read that thing I wrote above, and realized that sometimes I am very bad at grammar and syntax.
I like the phrase "passionately inspiration" and I think that that the simple present tense "realizes" adds some there-in-the-moment feelings to the sentence.
That and, despite my many years of editing, I usually don't catch mistakes like that when I'm reading blog comments. Except when they're pointed out to me :)
This blog was really inspiring to me too. My plans for after graduation aren't necessarily "legitimate" according to most adults, but this blog got me all excited!
Me too. Passionated inspirationally.
Can I copy and paste this blog into mine? I'll give you the credit. The picture is a little graphic though. :) But really, you said exactly what I've been feeling lately. Thanks for sharing.
P.S. I hope this doesn't mean you have an illness...
Stellar. Love it.
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