I live in a house with a yard. I have a nice car (a 2001 Honda Civic, but I think it’s pretty nice :) and I own a computer and a convection toaster oven. I’m sleeping on clean sheets and I’m watering plants and watching the hastas grow under my front window. I’m fit and healthy; my back is strong. I get my hair done in a real salon and I go to the dentist for cleanings. I have friends— good people, fun people, people I can openly share with.
These were all things I didn’t have as a child, things I used to long for. I yearned for clothes from Old Navy, I pined after clean cars and fresh fruit, I wished to live in a place to which I could invite people. And now I have all these things, all these things and more.
But it’s more than the things.
I have a Savior, my Lord Jesus Christ, and He has lavished on me so many gifts. I have a confidence I never had as a child, a sense that it’s okay to speak my mind. I have a husband— something I didn’t really long for as I child or a teenager (back then I thought love was for the romantically foolish), but caught me by surprise and totally remapped my interior life. I have a college degree… and now I’m finishing up my masters degree. I understand my place in the world. I feel now; I experience emotion in a way I never did before, deeply. I have a voice, I’ve been gifted, I know what it means to live.
I’m no longer the child that I was ashamed to be. I’m a woman, a very blessed woman looking to the future with hope and enjoying the present moment with deep satisfaction.
7 comments:
This is beautiful, Kessia. Thank you for taking the time to write it. I loved every word.
I'm glad I get to know you Kessia, you are a beautiful woman and I am glad we are friends.
This realization is beautiful!! I love reading what you write Kessia!
"By His mighty power at work within us He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or dream." Eph. 3:20 Definitely true in your case. :) Glad you can look back and see it all. I feel the same way about my life right now. Can't wait til we're in Heaven and get to see even more of the story of how God has blessed us.
Yeah Kessia! I'm really happy reading this. God takes care of His own.
Your healthy, in a healthy relationship, in a healthy house, with a great education, and a grand sense for the world and the world beyond.
Your so very lucky! I'm glad you appreciate it with a deep satisfaction. I'm glad you realize just how blessed you are. Its awesome!
You are so beautiful!!!
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